I really didn't want to b/p on Christmas..alas.

Today was really scary though... :( I was on the tube in the london underground and i felt really sick and then there was a man looking at me and was really close to my face asking me whether i had diabetes.

Turns out..i had passed out on the completely packed train against the door and when the doors opened, i fell out and crashlanded face-first on to the platform ..F*CK that was scary. The man put me in the recovery position and waited 'till i came round. My dad then ran off the tube train and the man vanished...

 

I was so embarrassed cause i was suddenly in the position of the person laying on the floor with a crowd of people around them.

 

Lack of food sucks. You'd think the body could make do with its own disgusting fat to live off, and believe me, there is enough of it in my case.. and HELLO! what the hell happened to fasting? ...not eating for days and then wtf? I had only not eaten for two days.. 

 

BUT now, joy of joys, i am being WATCHED by my sister and Dad who see to it that i eat.

Do you have any tips on barely eating anything but not passing out? 


Stay safe..

i just spend a little time reading through all your posts,
christmas is wierd... well its 22:06 here now... so its almoast over for me... yaay

i gained... i think i'm back to 55.5kg tomorrow morning... but i enjoyed my christmas with my bf... and i'm sick now... i've something like otitis... not sure it really is that yet... but it hurts really badly...

ok i'm planning on going back under 55 befor new years... and then in 2010 i'll NEVER be more than 55.0 and will first go to 52 kg... need to get to 52... thats a BMI of 20... would be great... really... i think i'll give a party when i'm finaly 52... just not tell people its because of that:P i didn't had a birthday party this year (i'm 19 since the 29th of november) so i can do that;P
and then ofcours to 50 kg (thats 110 pounds and from 55.5 kg thats still 12 pounds to lose) i really want to be there as soon as possible.. but atleast befor may!

and i'm a little afraid of the moment i'll start trying to stay at the same weight... because i find it so much easyer to be losing weight (or gaining) but staying the same weight is somehow impossible...

wel 2010 is a new start for lots of things... i'll come up with a list for the new year is a few days... going to bed now:P

hope you all had a nice christmas!?!

*hug*
mathilde

 typical day (1) 

Bfast:

1 cup skimmed milk w/ half cup fitness or special K cereal.

Lunch:

Fish (grilled) and salad ( no dressing).

Dinner:

Banana w/ 1 cup skimmed milk.

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Note: calcium helps w/ weight loss.

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( continue diet  )

today is my birthday. for some reason i thought no one will remember but now i feel so much better because my friends and cousins have been calling me all night and wishing to be the first lol. everyone remembered and even people that i havent spoken to in months. i dunno it just made me feel soooo much better and important.

cant go out anytime soon to celebrate it so am still liquid fasting. day two. just praying i dont get forced for lunch by my parents :(

am having TERRIBLE peanut butter and nutella cravings. any idea hot to shut them up? like terible terrible cravings like am gonna eat the whole jar. do i like have a tablespoon or something? =\

how are you lovelies doing? like srsly tell me i love reading ur comments. :P
and i rlly love this community it just feels so much better to talk about things and not feel like shit afterwards ir regret it :)
XXXX

I was sitting on the couch wearing a T-shirt and underpants. I felt weird and looked down to my legs. My butt has grown huge! Since I haven't done exercises and have eaten like a pig, I'm having cellulite!!! 

This week I made a plan to lose 8 kg, starting 1.1.2009, ending 5.6.2009. I'm going to try a diet rule max 1000 kcal. And I'm going to exercise every day. That's not what I'm used to, so that can be quite a challenge to me. And I'm going to take it.

Right now I don't know my weight, since I don't have the courage to stand on the scale 'cause of Christmas.

Today we are going to a sled hill. That will work as an exercise for this day.

What did you guys get for Christmas presents?? I gave the x-box game Lips 2 to my little brother.. But I think he's not even close as exited for it as I am! ^^ He likes to sing, not just these songs.